How good do you want to be?
Lately, I find myself in an odd situation.
Here I am, working a 38 hours a week regular dayjob, and on top of that, I’m trying to jumpstart my own business. Now the thing is, it’s getting to me. Physically and mentally.
So naturally this gets you thinking. Should I take the plunge and start working for myself? Or wait a while (how long??) longer ans see where it goes.
Do I still like my current job? Offcourse I do. But I have this strange feeling/thought/vision, whatever you want to call it, that I’m destined for something else, something more. I know, it sounds pretensious, but I don’t mean it that way. I just believe that I need to walk another road.
I read an article a while ago about how you get a false sence of security from having a job at a big corporation. This is both true and false. In order to get some perspective I created a little list on why I would want to work on my own:
Working for your own means:
- You’re the boss, hurray no more incompetence from upper-management = a plus
- You’re the boss, so there’s no blaming someone else. When something goes wrong, you can’t just point to management = a negative (kinda)
- You know what you are working for, your income! Everything you do, you do it for yourself (Take that bryan!) = a plus
- Stress and insecurity. If things don’t go the way they’re planned, it’s your money = bad
- You work as hard as you want to. Want to go with a 4-day workweek, then do it = a plus, definately
- Can also mean you have to work twice as hard as before = undecided
I could go on and on, but you have to realize, that now matter what point you are trying to make, it will always have an upside and a downside. No, this is not the way to go. There should be only one reason to quit your job, and I believe I already said so in the beginning of my rambling.
There has to be a drive. An urge. Something deep inside you shouting out: “Hey man, this is not what you should be doing. You’re more than this (not better, more! = important)”. Yes there’s the possibility that things will not work out the way you want them to. But that’s a risk you will have to take. A risk I will have to take. And I’m not sure I’m ready for that.
Now, lets get to the title of the topic.
HOW GOOD DO YOU WANT TO BE?
I want to be remarkable.
I have so many ideas, so many things I want to do, to try and execute. To have the luxury of trying out something new and going flat on my face. And then to be able to say: Oh well, it was worth a try.
Maybe I should stop whining and get to it.
/rambling off